Chaotic tailwinds.
       If the wind is at your back, it's harder to take off - you travel farther for the same amount of lift, and you end up as a wreck on the ground.

You have to face the chaos in order to fly.

    I'm rather at a loss of words.
Right now, i'm watching a pair of lesser goldfinches flirt around the horrible mess that is my side garden. They don't care oil is over 4$ a gallon, and rising just about hourly. Right now I wish I was one of them.
    Really, I'm surprised this happened today.
     Ive been watching news reports for about an hour now - fights breaking out at gas stations, lines of cars hundreds long, gas station owners commenting on the chaos.
    I don't think people realize that this is just the beginning. At school today, it was barely talked about. Prom was Friday, it was more important than the collapse-of-civilization as we know it. F*, its probably their last prom. When the crash was mentioned, it was just a whining aside.
     I look around, I see a bunch of people that are going to be lost, confused. The cheerleaders will be whoring themselves out for gas money soon enough, watch.
        And this is the generation thats going to fix this world?
We're going down the Shole, Sheads.

And I look back at myself a week ago, my second post - F, Am I a retard.
    I was just about to get my licence.
        Real nice timing.

*I've censored myself, in times of agitation I swear A LOT. this post is just a toned down version of what I'm actually sounding like right now.

    It seems that the more I think about it, the more I hope that the 8tsoc are wrong, and that nothing goes down on the 30th.
       I had a concert today, performed with the band, and I kept wondering if this will be my last concert, wondering if I would get to make music again. And it was this way with a lot of things. My dad was trimming his roses - maybe this is the last time for him. There might not be water to drink, let alone water flowers. And I'm starting to get worried, not so much for me, but for everyone else. People are going to go through a lot of hard times when the oil crashes.

    Even worse is how unprepared we are. It's not like there is much I can do concerning supplyies, and trying to tell my parents... it would go something like this... "bad things are going to happen on the 30th, we need to get ready" "how do you know" "eight random people on the internet said so"

    And finish this off with one last worry: fire season is starting (in fact, theres a fire going right now within about 50 miles). if there is NO oil to power trucks and such, it will be rather difficult to fight them. I see a lot of fires sweeping a lot of people's homes away.

I've been thinking* about this whole April 30th thing - I'm not all the way convinced its going to happen. I mean the oil crash IS going to happen, but I wonder about this exact date - its two days away (yikes) and the only storm clouds on the horizon are a couple of strangers making blog posts, which is slightly above "dude waving a sign on a street corner yelling 'THE END IS NEAR!'" for believeability. Still, lets assume it is, in fact, happening on Monday.
So I've done some research. First: power.
http://www.riversideca.gov/utilities/elec-powerlabelcontent.asp *
Power doesn't look too good. 29% doesn't rely very heavily on oil -13% renewable, 13% nuclear, and 3% hydro. Most of the rest is coal. Since Riverside doesn't have any coal mines, I'm assuming that the coal we use is brouhgt in by oil power. 29% energy means we can probably get by, but AC is out of the question.
Riverside is misnamed. There is no river next to it, just a mostly dry riverbed, especially in the summer. We get our water from underground sources near the head of the Santa Ana river. It is pumped out and sent here. Being as important as it is, I'm going to assume that a chunk of that 29% power left is going to keep the water flowing.
Lastly we have to deal with food supplies. This is where we get screwed. There is no living off the land, so to speak, because nothing substantial grows here naturally during the summer. What wilderness we do have dies off until the rain comes in fall. The food grown here using imported* water isn't enough to support the people living here, either.
And all of these problems are compounded by the fact that we are in proximity to LA, and are probably going to get an influx of people fleeing the chaos of the big, poorly planned city collapsing.

*Xeratu, thank you for that mental slap to the face you posted in my comments. (Not sarcasm)
*if someone could show me how to post links, that would be nice
*possible misuse of the word, I mean the water isn't rainfall but is pumped in from somewhere else

    The world is boring right now.
       Well, maybe it isn't, if you live somewhere else.
    I live in the middle of suburbia, amidst rows of track homes (6 houses down the street and there is another house with the exact same layout as this one. Go another six houses, and you find another copy.) My parents are far too normal. I'm the crazy one - I probably have several different entities living in my head, and most of them aren't fully human. This alone shows how I bored I am, as people with interesting lives don't need to drive themselves insane just to keep themselves occupied.
    Most of my time is spent looking for something interesting. I'm a band geek, as this also goes ways towards relieving boredom. I play the bassoon, which is possibly the most interesting instrument, because not only does it look like a bong, the fingerings could only have been designed by someone who was high at the time, and hadn't been sober for a while. I play the flute during marching season (if boredom isn't what has driven me insane, the (on average) three hour practices a day probably have) Still, outside of band, I am generally bored.
    I think a total collapse of, well, everything would go quite a ways toward making things interesting again.
    The only big problem is this - it's california, it's april. It's hot now, and it's going to get hotter, and, according to all the various websites I have been reading, there isn't going to be enough power for AC. This fact alone is going to make summer miserable.
    The other problem I see is that the internet is going down too - and the internet is going to be the only thing to destract myself from the heat.
    But as long as the internet stays, this place is the place for all my ranting.

    I'm a teenager, in high school. This is all you need to know about the real me.
       This is the best way to explain my personality:
Think of me as a magpie: I'm noisy, curious, and like to be in groups.
I even like shiny things.